Words behind the wall

I’ve realized that things I used to fight myself against or the things I would double think, is okay. For example, it’s okay to ask for help. In reality we want to take care of ourselves and be independent so we can say that we have absolutely everything because of ourself. Yeah, that’s cool but really sometimes no matter what we need help. We need somebody to tell us we are reasonable and that you can’t do everything on your own every day for the rest of your life. That is okay. It is okay to reach out to the people you consider your closest people, and get help. No matter if it’s mental help or physical help.

I have also realized that it’s okay to have bad days. I used to live in a reality where I thought in order for you to be happy with life you had to be happy and love every single day. That’s not true. You can love your life and still be sad or mad at an outcome of a situation or at the way life is heading in the moment. In everyday I try to remind myself that there is at least 5 things in life to be happy about. Also that things mess up. We as humans cannot control the outcome of everything. We can do the best we can and that should always be enough for you. You’re enough as long as you’re doing the best that you have for the day.

On the real, somedays I wake up and don’t want to be anybody but me. I don’t want to be a mom, worker, friend, girlfriend, daughter, sister, nothing. Just me. I want to be distant from the world and just be in a little bubble of me. But I just push through and I see why I can’t just stop being the things that make me, me. It would have a slight affect in the everyday life of some people. I’m not the best person in the world, but I know that I make a difference to a few lives a day. That’s why I do it and that’s the motivation that is enough for me.

So it’s okay to just be okay today. Do the best for yourself and that will always be enough.