Words behind the wall

I’ve been seeing the “truth of life” lately. You really have to accept life at what it really is and what people show themselves to truly be. I’m still personally trying to process the fact people do you dirty and wrong out here but pretend it’s you. Slowly seeing life and people and things as reality. I am finally accepting because I’m so tired of changing so many things.

One thing I’m working on accepting is that it’s okay if “they” don’t choose you. There will always be another job, house, place, car, or person. It sounds kind of harsh but it’s true. All of that can be replaced or can replace you at any given moment (of course not the car or maybe house) without another second thought -BUT the type of person you are and the vibe you bring to a crowded room is irreplaceable. Protect you more than them and don’t let anything take your shine. Accept that there is more than what didn’t want you.

I’m learning to accept the being alone process. It’s kind of sad sometimes. Growing up I wanted to be married with two kids by 25 working at a place I love and continually growing my career- not working an hourly paid job, sleeping my life away and sometimes feeling like I’m the only person in my universe. I feel like everybody needs an alone phase though. I think it really gives you the opportunity to grow for yourself and focus on the things you want and deserve. You have to accept how “lonely” it is and also see how much you can do for yourself.

I’m accepting that not all people have the heart I do. I feel like sometimes I give the benefit of the doubt because I want to believe everybody has a good intention. Reality is you might give somebody five hundred but they won’t even give you twenty. You might give this person this expectation but they know you trust them so they might half do or do what they’re feeling. I would give the shirt off my back to a stranger, but these people won’t even tell the truth out here anymore. I’ve seen the worse things in the world out here and all I can think is “I could never.”. You learn to accept it though and you expect what somebody shows and gives. Actions show everything in someones intentions.

As I’ve sat back and observed the way of life and the people in it – I’ve realized that you have to surround yourself with people with a mindset similar to yours. If you want more, you have to be around people who want more and who have goals. Find people with hobbies and visions for a grater world. Who accept you for all you are and can mentally help you find yourself again and your path to your forever life. You have to be around the ones who are motivating you and truly caring about your happiness and existence. Believe it or not there ARE those people out there. You just have to be openminded, too.

I’ve truly accepted that one day life will be where I want it to be and what I’ve always dreamt of. BUUUUUT – I am the only person who can get me there. It is okay to reach out and find those for you. If you take a look around, you might have a few people who just really hate the topic of you but there is more rooting for your best life. Most importantly, you can be your worse enemy too. Stop fighting so much against yourself and actually just go for it. You’d be amazed at what you can do.